Winnipeg Free Press

Winnipeg Free Press (Newspaper) - June 17, 1978, Winnipeg, Manitoba Words about the words Are and some winners Are autos pair Peter Manitoba Dollar Manitoba Sony winners name not released by publication Date Sears Manitoba Basile Manitoba James Manitoba Anne Manitoba Stan Manitoba Myron Saskatchewan Wayne Benny As an Oil quite unix he asked me How Long i had been married and what i thought of i told him eight years and that i was a firm believer in the the conversation then turned to landscape painting and the geology of the state of before we parted i asked him with out thinking about it very much if he would like to come and have Coffee the next i thought he was someone saggy would probably like to meet when he came Francis Cuzens showed up the next Day and we had Coffee on the the storm Clouds had moved in from the horizon and the air was we talked about Texas the Muir Woods and mexi can that i chatted pleas Francis Cuzens was not the sort of person i was used to chatting unlike saggy and his he was not warm and he was not but he was and full of some sort of Energy i was not used tothe sort of Energy that is not dissipated by hard when an hour had passed he stood to leave and asked if he might come Back the next that seemed perfectly Fine the next Day we decided to take a ride half a mile out the first raindrops fell and then by the time the storm began to break we were near the quonset hut in which the team stored its we made a dash for put the horses in a shed and ran Francis bolted the door against the the hut smelled pleasantly of rope and rain drummed Down on the there was a window you closed with a Canvas Flap that the wind was pulling Francis went to tie it Down and when he came Back he looked rather Stormy he lifted me off the Camp chair i was sitting on and took me into his not Long after that i committed adultery on my husbands when baggy came Back i realized How easy it is to conduct what is called Normal one indiscretion Doest do much damage these women magazines report that their readers fantasize about men other than their husbands during the act of but i never in i could very Well have thought that nothing had happened to and had i gathered around me my Mother and my and even and explained the situation to their advice would have Oceen to shut up and carry after i loved didst i i had hardly betrayed if you believe that betrayal has in it a component of my feelings for saggy had not in fact changed one i had i i capable of before Francis Cuzens that notion was As Remote to me As and a contemplation of it would have been As random and uninformed As speculation about life on other no matter what psychological journals Tell you about personal finding a hidden part of your nature is quite it is like being in a War in which unpredictable bullets Fly at you from hidden the woman who believed in who thought that life was a straight who married the Only Man she had Ever loved had Given herself Over intimately to that meant first of i knew i must have undergone some profound or my meeting with Francis Cuzens could not have but when had this change taken place had i slept through it had it crept up on me in such minimal stages that i could not know it and if i had i was therefore not the person saggy had second of i was i believed that actions of the flesh Are i thought i believed in married and Only married i had not been a scared Virgin when i married but a determined Why be intimate casually was my my encounter with Francis Cuzens shattered All these How casual had that encounter really been had i planned it without knowing it had i broadcast some thing to him lust desire bore Dom did strangers on your Hus bands land ask you How you Felt about marriage As a matter of course i could not believe that this was if it was whim pure a mistake1 was not events do change two weeks later i found a letter from Francis Cuzens in my it said that he had wanted me at first it said when you Are Call ill be waiting on the Bottom was his san Francisco Telephone when you Are did those in tense eyes of his peer through my goo wife front right Down to the heart of a woman who was about to be ready a month later i left i told him he was but not in the Normal he said he knew i would come i expect i knew toot he seemed to feel that this was something i had to which made me realize How shocking it is when someone takes you up on what you think you i thought i was the least casual woman saggy thought so he was As he always was generous and he gave me my head As you give a horse his the horse goes off in the wrong direction out of some important impulse of its then it comes Back to i married Francis Cuzens for Rea sons that probably have washed with the fact it was a it was my strike on the Side of it was my Way of making Concrete what might have been a moments but i did not believe in the weakness of the it was for people like me that the phrase there Are no accidents was saggy was very kind about the he managed to keep it quiet in Despe Lesto make it easier when i eventually got i had a Man i had left who loved and a Man to go to who loved i stood in a Little Church in san realizing that on two separate occasions i had vowed to two different men to Honor and cherish till death us did the trouble with second marriages is rather like the trouble with new shoes they dont fit the Way your old ones they Pinch in places you Are not used to feeling at All All those easy the private the the easy Are gone from of i was entirely wrong to marry Francis marrying put of principle is hardly a Wise and while he was difficult to live my experience of being married to him was not entirely in rather it was continually nothing about him was like anything about he was not warm and he was Cool and he did not have a big Gener Ous he had a method ical Way of doing he left his Hairbrush and Toothbrush lying next to each other on the bathroom counter at he ate the same breakfast every his when he finished working at was neat and these things touched me in the Way that arrangements in foreign countries touch when i said my husband it was saggy i not i stayed with Francis for a he was More like Romance and nothing like in marriage you get used to in Romance what you want is con Stant i didst have much to most of my things i had left with saggy which gave him excellent reason to assume that i was coming Back to remarry As aunt Bettine had Uncle i thought that i would eventually go Back to he didst seem to mind the idea of some profound change in but i if i was going to go Back i Felt i needed a Little taste of some self imposed i minded the very least i could do was to catch up with Billy Mcleod became my tour guide and cruise he took me to lunch at an inn in his Home he drove me to Urquhart Castle on Loch he drove me to look at Ben the highest Point in the British Isles and was constantly angry that i never brought my camera on these excursions Billy talked about his he de scribed her As which i took to be the sort of hyperbole used ;